remember that we used to be

You once told me that, how amazing it was a tiny friendship out of nothing could bloom into a relationship like us.

All the things we've been through since we met 6 years ago. What do they all mean to you? Who am I to you? Who am i still to you right now at this moment?

See what's the promise you left for me? How broken was I?

we are humans, still

this year's mooncake festival was different. first time celebrating it away from my own house with my own family.

just now had some mooncake with my housemates. the feeling is different though. so many people expressing their urge on fb to go back home to celebrate this festival.

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this morning heard something funny from a friend that will maybe cheer you up a bit like it did for me. "哎别伤心啦，外国的月亮比较圆啊！"

haha often we thought like that when we're still back in our hometowns, but now when we're really out here in the big cities, we miss our hometown despite all the bad things you thought about your hometown back then.
maybe it was my own fault. maybe it was me being too naive and thinking too much that you'll regret making that decision
humans, we're always like this.

i can't believe it either

Shocked but i dreamt about something so unbelievable. gosh what's happening to me? i dreamt about you

what am i thinking?

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你
带我走过最难忘的旅行
然後留下最痛的纪念品

我们那麽甜 那麽美
那麽相信
那麽疯 那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们
还是要奔向各自的幸福
和遗憾中老去

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
最怕此生已经决定自己过
没有你却又突然
听到你的消息

Mayday's 突然好想你 ♥

all the best in your practicals :)

you're gone from church for 2 weeks now.

without your voice, without your smile, without your crazy laughters, without your jokes, without your passion, without the chat with you, without the song sharing with you, without someone that knows me so well, without someone that share so many common interests and opinions with me, without you. can i stay so long until the month after next month till i see you again? haih why will you be gone for such a long time? why should your practical in kuantan be so long? :(

arla arla we gave up, you won. we all really miss you lahh really really miss you

remember what you wrote in my autograph book

如果要走，请你记得我.

-借口。周杰伦

in the end songs still describes it the best

this song. listen. even if most of you have already heard of it. you'll know lau yee tsin.

只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天
睡着的大提琴 安静的旧旧的

我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道 你没有舍不得

你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我 也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开

你要我说多难堪 我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份 包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多 我会一直好好过

你已经远远离开 我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份 安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你 是因为我太爱你

We don't talk anymore. And you know what the saddest part is?
We used to talk everyday.

damn jackson you know me man

came over this in my man's blog. damn it's lyrics are so vivid, a little too vivid.

Now that it's all said and done
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
And what you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of me

Well I never saw it coming
I should've started running
A long long time ago
And I never thought to doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
And now i'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of others opened up
So did my eyes, so I could see
That you never were the best for me

Well I never saw it coming
I should've started running
A long long time ago
And I never thought to doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, More than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
Now I'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you

'Cause I got over you
'Cause I got over you
I got over you
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you.

I did, I did.

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know (i know)
And know when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

this is why you're still my best friend up until now

this is what i saw on my fb wall today:

Dear Lawrence Kiing ت my best of best BRO,

"TIME really can heal, if you let it."[Ting QiaoQiao]
"When TIME passes, it doesn't matter anymore."[Amelia Hii]
"Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak … sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go."[Tim]
"Don't waste your time on someone who doesn't appreciate you the way you should be appreciated."[Tim]

Tim =D

Thanks man. I really appreciate it :)
now you see how hurt am i?

安静

never have i ever thought about something like this happening to me. the thought never even flash through my mind. not even once.

you.

who gives a damn. now i finally know how can two hate each other so much. damn it what a damned fool i have been. now that i know your true colour. i guess that's really it. hell that's really a big fat joke. such lie, such nuisance. after giving in so much, after so much excuses, after defending you even though i know i'm the victim. haha. funny. real funny. i still don't believe i actually fell for it.

shit. good luck with him. i deserve a better girl. fuckin' hundred times better than you

in 2 months

7/7/2010

1/9/2010

haha so michelle i really learnt from you :P and the effect is kinda nice too even though it's not like yours ranging from 1st year to 2nd and then the third year.

we're somehow quite different already even if it's only 2 months. i wondered how will we all look like 1 year later :D

finally i got to meet with you

ahahaha finally i saw him once again, here in the big KL city :D

if you saw a post i posted a few posts earlier which i wrote about him, you can imagine how i feel like when i finally get to see him in person once again =)

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so he came here around 6pm yesterday. then me and ernest and a SPECIAL girl for lao da(xD) accompanied him to connaught pasar malam, the known malaysia's longest night market. we bought a lot of food and stuffs. it was the first time i walked the night market so long around 3 hours. he even bought SEVEN pairs of crocs for his family back in sibu. (okay here's something funny: when he paid for the shoes, the tauke said this:"wah you bought so many, all buying for your CHILDREN ah?"-- in chinese) HAHAHAHAHA! CHILDREN! i'm not joking we heard that with our bare ears! (omg timo tsk tsk you looked that old to the ppl at here what hahaha) we were both like looking at each other with the 'what the heck' faces and then laughed like hell before we left the shoe stall xD

the taiwan burgers we had :)

and oya we met with jessie too! she was with her mahsa college's classmates ahaha such a coincidence to bump into her :) a long lost friend too. and still a very pretty and TALL girl which we've known haha :P

luckily she's not taller than me (actually she's standing on a lower ground, i forced her to) LOL

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After the walk we went back to my unit. Ernest let him sleep in his room while he slept on the sofa in the living room. (so touched T.T xD)

and so the whole night we were.. what do you expect we are boys what so of coz we're dealing with some serious game stuffs and AWESOME softwares. among the games he gave me were cod 6 modern warfare2, battlefield, counter strike 1.6v, fifa 10, tom clancy HAWK, guilty gear and devil may cry. and about the software i was mentioning, it was ADOBE PHOTOSHOP CS 5!! omg FIVE it was FIVE for crying out loud dude i really don't know how can you get this shit but i am really glad that i own it now too! it's even a cracked and 'genuine' version now somemore (HAHA lim yi! xPPP)

and besides that. he really did a huge favor for me last night. my comp went crazy for the last few days and i cant even play my games smoothly like i used to when i just came here to kl. i think maybe it's the problem with my ram and graphic card so last night i asked him to help me fix it. and wow as what a professional software technician will do, he succeeded. now i'm playing my games with a higher quality and resolutions with my nvidia gaming graphic card instead of the built-in intel grahpic card. (i was so stupid before this, before he helped switch my graphic cards. i was still using the built in one no wonder it lags so much when i play games last time LOL)

and after that i installed fifa 10 and played a match with him :D and finally we had some midnight chat until 5 sth. we talked a lot. about my stuffs and i guess some of you will know what's that 'stuff'. only with him i can express my own self and my secrets. it'd really been a long time since we last talked like this. and it really feels good, to be talking with your best friend, moreover your brother :)

just hope that you'll know how glad and happy i am to see you again despite all the games and softwares that you've given me LOL really hope to see you soon :D

maybe this raya break? ;) Timothy Ngu =)