也不知道自己是怎么了
就觉得她受伤了，伤心了
自己也会很心疼，

就真的很想保护她。

:))

It's a real test.

Just when I thought my days couldn't get any worse and that I could be better starting today,
I got struck down again.
And this time it's about my studies.

Got back my microbio quiz result today,
and to be honest I was really disappointed.
Even though I admit I was still fooling around last time and didn't prepare well for it(since I only started studying like, two days before the quiz lol),
and even though I told myself to take it easy and be happy-go-lucky with the result when I got it,
but then still, when even your lecturer told you that you must work harder for finals,
more or less you will feel a bit disappointed inside.

I don't know why but recently I've been having really really rough days,
bad things just keep happening to me one after another.
I really don't know why but I really pity myself.
Seriously, how can so many bad things happen to someone in such a short period of time?
I really don't think my heart can take it anymore.
I may look stronger and fine outside,
but my world is tumbling down inside.

Season of sufferings.
I believe all these happen for a reason,
to make me stronger, to make me a better person.
God, if this is really a test for me,
I pray for the strength to overcome these hardships,
please carry me through it.
Because this is really too much for me to take and I really can't do it on my own.
I really can't.

I really gotta learn to love myself more too. I deserved more. 

爱是你的 我是我的 完了。

Because actually you just wish for someone that would care for you as much as you'll care for her,
someone that would love you as much as you'll love her,
someone that appreciates you,
someone that's afraid to lose you,
someone that wouldn't take the things you do for her for granted,
someone that would make you feel like she's making an effort to keep you too.


And I'm exhausted.
she's been there all the time. maybe sincerity is what really touches you. why are you so blind lawrence?

有點怕。

我的愛 是說停不能停， 

已經濃的不能說是曾經，

也可說成我是錯的 还未曾變成真的， 

也沒談到多少你需要的愛。
  

You better believe.

That he's a lucky guy.
Don't I at least mean something to you? 

Keep calm.

I'm playing it solo.
Fyeah.
If this continues on you should just be forever alone for your whole life la. Losing this game for so many times, aren't you sick and tired of it already? Why the fuck did you let your guards down again this time? Isn't the pain she caused you last time enough? Why the fuck did you let another girl in again? Why the fuck did you fall for her? Just look at how pathetic this is now, she doesn't even appreciate the things that you did for her, don't even have to mention if she treated you as someone special or not. Look at this shit, she's in love with someone else even after all that you've done. To think that you once even thought you were the guy she mentioned. Your wishful thinking hahahahahahaha lawrence, you pathetic moron. 

Sigh.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA OMG. pathetic.
  

Oh take me back to the start.

No words required. Just this song.

You're an angel that God sent for me since what happened that day. That I can never forget. 

Even though I might not be anybody to you all this while.

"Nobody said it was easy. 

No one ever said it would be so hard."
  

An arm's distance.

I understand you needed your own freedom,
so I'm giving you the space you've always wanted.

even though it hurts, 
cause' at one time I really thought I was someone special to you. I really did.

always. 

Probably my biggest fear.

I just want to stay with you in those moments forever.

I could spend my life in this sweet surrender,
I could stay lost in those moments forever,
Cause' every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure.

I really don't wish that it was just my wishful thinking. I really wish it was me all along.

If you let me.

You don't know how much or how it kills to see that smile again. 
:') 
never knew you'd mean so much to me.
maybe the whole world at this moment.

"your broken heart requires all of my attention,

you gotta breathe, we'll be okay."

Lost.

Now that my last resort has turned its back on me,
I really don't know how to carry on anymore.

Why God, why does all these happen to me?
Is this some kind of test?
If it is, I failed it totally.
Totally.
:'(

it really hurt me. it really really hurt me. 

Lawrence, you are such an idiot. Total big time idiot.

Cry, cause i'm here to wipe your eyes.

Hey you, come over and let me embrace you. 
I know that I'm causing you pain too.
But remember if you need to cry,
I'm here to wipe your eyes.
   

Don't let me go.

You're all that I have left when the whole world seems to be turning its back on me.

Please, don't let me go.

三個字

從前有那三個字人人都鐘意, 

好不可思議,
但是又有幾個人真正明白,

那意思我只知道我只想你快樂。

Everything to me.

Your eyes are wonderful, your smile is too. 
Your laugh's contagious and your heart is true.

You're everything that makes me fall in love.

我的歌聲裡

你存在我深深的腦海裡 ，

我的夢裡，　

我的心裡，　

我的歌聲裡。 :)

知音难寻。

Hmm how should I put this..
Today has been a sucky day for me, actually everyday has been.
Sigh I really don't wish to resume my blog with an emotional post.
But seriously, after the mock today, I really can't take it anymore. 

Do you know that feeling of being ignored or neglected? Yeah, it's never a good feeling. 
I have a lot of friends here in kl, but none were close enough for me to turn to when I'm feeling down except for a best friend I found here in kl. 
And I don't think I can click with my gang as well as I think I could now no matter how hard I try to blend in.
You know, that feeling of getting neglected all the time. 
They always do their own things and never bothered to tell me, discuss things together on fb tagged everyone but didn't bothered to tag me and whenever I'm asking questions they don't even feel like answering me.
It's like at least I'm part of your gang okay, why treat me as if I don't even exist? 
You'll never know how disappointed I am at times. 
Sigh. 

I miss Timothy.

"People aren't always going to be there for you, 

that's why you need to learn to handle things on your own."

Right next to you.

I will not leave you.

I think i'll love you better now.

And oh guess what, made a new cover with my friend, Mark :)
We both love Ed, and esp this song too. So we decided to do this together.
Had a lot of fun making this cover btw ahaha
Feel free to check it out and hope you'll like it!
:D

什么是幸福？

小时候，幸福是一件简单的事；长大了，简单是一件幸福的事。
 

Love is, love is a complicated thing.

I miss you a little..
a little too much,
a little too often
and a little more each day ;)

Girl let me love you, and I'll love you until you learned to love yourself.

Girl let me love you, and all your troubles, don't be afraid, girl let me help.

Girl let me love you, a heart of numbness, gets brought to life, I'll take you there.