Tuesday, September 28, 2010

movie for the night

wow it have really been a while since a movie will make me drop tears

--aftershock.


a really really touching movie. i gotta admit how amazing are the acting skills of the actors and actresses in this movie. (this movie is available in pps too so check it out when you're free.)

trust me, i don't simply recommend movies on my blog. ;)

Monday, September 27, 2010

credits to terrence! ;)



Christina Perri - Jar of hearts.

I know I cant take one more step towards you
Cause all thats waiting is regret
And don't you know im not your ghost anymore
You lost the love
I loved the most

I learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are
Runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

It took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all you're promises

And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are
runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

can i don't say ?

The sweetest part in life is to carry the memories in it, but the toughest part is to say goodbye to the person who is behind all those memories.


有一种朋友叫。 红颜知己

男生说……

有种女生让我很喜欢,

却不忍动情。

跟那种女生在一起时,

会有种温暖的感觉,

那感觉并不出自一时的冲动,

而是来自于彼此心灵的了解。

真的,跟那种女生在一起时,

只有彼此心中的感动和心灵的交会,

没错,

当你发现她的心和你是如此贴近时,

常会想给她个结实的拥抱,

但仅仅在这个想法萌生后的一瞬间,

你们只会相视一笑,

有些东西是比爱情更珍贵的。

这种女生当女朋友是种浪费……

我害怕她做的我女朋友后,

我必须每天守着电话等着她的声音出现,

我害怕我必须说些花言巧语的话哄她,

更加害怕现实的束缚,

会限制住纯洁的心。

这种女生,

喜欢,

但我不会动情,

或者,

这就叫红颜知己……

既不用为情所困,

为她的行为控制自己喜怒哀乐,

又能享有心灵上的交流。

有很多人都为交不到女朋友所苦,

但我觉得,

假如没有了这种知己,

人生,

便多了许多遗憾……



女生说……

有一些男生,

很令我动心,

但却不会动情。

怎么说呢,

因为他们给我的感觉像朋友,

真正的朋友 。

我可以和他们很坦诚的谈论彼此的爱情、婚姻、人生……

以及种种的烦恼……

在他们面前,

我会忘记自己是女生,

就不会撒娇、嫉妒、小心眼……

我和他们各站在天平的两端,

我们可以一同看电影、郊游回来,

在车站挥挥手,各自去等自己的车,走自己的路。

这种感觉……

是一种很难用语言能形容的愉悦……

信不信 ,

跟这些男生相处在一起,

甚至比跟同类的女生相处来的愉快。

女生的聚会,是黏稠稠的,

像一锅浓粥,温暖在胸,

但是吃多了会撑,一眨眼又饿,

而且很多女生都为情所困,

谈来谈去总是心有千千结,

别人管也管不完,跟这些男生相处,

我很惊讶……

他们不必从文字、故事的迷林披荆斩棘,

就能一眼洞穿人生的奥秘 .

甚至开始为旁边的同行者掌灯,

能结交有智慧、理想与热情的朋友,

是人一生莫大的幸福吧 。

我是这样着迷于他们高贵的气质,

也感谢他们把我当「朋友」看待,

不因为我是女生,

就随便说些甜言蜜语来哄我,

或者根本不睬我 。

如果追求人生的伴侣也必须如此相知相惜,

那我实在「舍不得」把这些男生当成男朋友,

我害怕一旦变成男女朋友,

我就会计较他不送我回家……

他不说些好听的动心话……

他宁可送我「尼采与上帝」也不送一粒巧克力……

我还担心从此他只要我乖乖的陪在一旁,

微笑地看他在众人间侃侃而谈,

我发问的机会都没有。



男女之间,其实不只有爱情……

有种友情,是只可会意不可言传的。

彼此之间有种惺惺相惜的感觉,

不必害怕别人的误会,

因为彼此心中坦荡,

很喜欢这种“兄弟”之称的友谊,

这种朋友有种信赖的安全感,

可以肆无忌惮的说笑,

天马行空的胡扯,

彼此之间没有包袱,

但有种珍惜,

是对友谊的珍惜。

你也许会对他(她)撒娇,

但不会妒忌他(她)对别人也如此,

不用再他面前装做淑女(或不用在她面前装做绅士),

有种朋友即使很久没见也不会生疏,

相见时的相视一笑,

便会有种心有灵犀的感觉,

和他(她)在一起时,

不必担心会背叛你,

因为他只会给你默默地支持,

即使你受伤了,

他也会给你做坚强的后盾。

心情不好时,

他(她)会装傻逗你笑,

生病时,他(她)会叮嘱你要小心什么,

每逢特别节日时,

他(她)会发一条简信祝福你,

很多人都希望有这种友谊,

因为它不需要负担与责任,

我想这种友谊也要讲机缘吧,


当初应该是这样吗?


came across with this on fb.


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Saturday, September 25, 2010

触景伤情

Just came back from a wedding lunch.


Remember when you told me about weddings and the feasts, when we can enjoy the atmosphere of the happiness together?
Yeah, i still remember.

Friday, September 24, 2010

happy birthday ;)

到不了的地方叫远方
回不去的地方叫家乡
爱不到的人叫回忆
不能倒流的时间叫后悔
忘不了的伤痛是因为依然我爱你
你 现在会在哪里


guess what, another quote from our famous, one and only, LIM YI da jie! XD

EMO SI ahh you! but, i like it. lol

Thursday, September 23, 2010

remember that we used to be

You once told me that, how amazing it was a tiny friendship out of nothing could bloom into a relationship like us.

All the things we've been through since we met 6 years ago. What do they all mean to you? Who am I to you? Who am i still to you right now at this moment?



See what's the promise you left for me? How broken was I?

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

we are humans, still

this year's mooncake festival was different. first time celebrating it away from my own house with my own family.

just now had some mooncake with my housemates. the feeling is different though. so many people expressing their urge on fb to go back home to celebrate this festival.

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this morning heard something funny from a friend that will maybe cheer you up a bit like it did for me. "哎别伤心啦,外国的月亮比较圆啊!"

haha often we thought like that when we're still back in our hometowns, but now when we're really out here in the big cities, we miss our hometown despite all the bad things you thought about your hometown back then.
maybe it was my own fault. maybe it was me being too naive and thinking too much that you'll regret making that decision
humans, we're always like this.

i can't believe it either

Shocked but i dreamt about something so unbelievable. gosh what's happening to me? i dreamt about you

Sunday, September 19, 2010

what am i thinking?

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你
带我走过最难忘的旅行
然後留下最痛的纪念品

我们那麽甜 那麽美
那麽相信
那麽疯 那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们
还是要奔向各自的幸福
和遗憾中老去

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
最怕此生已经决定自己过
没有你却又突然
听到你的消息




Mayday's 突然好想你 ♥

all the best in your practicals :)

you're gone from church for 2 weeks now.

without your voice, without your smile, without your crazy laughters, without your jokes, without your passion, without the chat with you, without the song sharing with you, without someone that knows me so well, without someone that share so many common interests and opinions with me, without you. can i stay so long until the month after next month till i see you again? haih why will you be gone for such a long time? why should your practical in kuantan be so long? :(



arla arla we gave up, you won. we all really miss you lahh really really miss you

Friday, September 17, 2010

remember what you wrote in my autograph book






如果要走,请你记得我.
-借口。周杰伦

Thursday, September 16, 2010

in the end songs still describes it the best

this song. listen. even if most of you have already heard of it. you'll know lau yee tsin.



只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天
睡着的大提琴
安静的旧旧的
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道
你没有舍不得

你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我 也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开

你要我说多难堪 我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份 包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多 我会一直好好过

你已经远远离开 我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份 安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你 是因为我太爱你

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

We don't talk anymore. And you know what the saddest part is?
We used to talk everyday.

damn jackson you know me man

came over this in my man's blog. damn it's lyrics are so vivid, a little too vivid.



Now that it's all said and done
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
And what you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of me

Well I never saw it coming
I should've started running
A long long time ago
And I never thought to doubt you
I'm better off without you

More than you, more than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
And now i'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say

And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of others opened up
So did my eyes, so I could see
That you never were the best for me

Well I never saw it coming
I should've started running
A long long time ago
And I never thought to doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, More than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
Now I'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you

'Cause I got over you
'Cause I got over you
I got over you
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

I did, I did.



I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know (i know)
And know when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

this is why you're still my best friend up until now

this is what i saw on my fb wall today:



Dear Lawrence Kiing ت my best of best BRO,

"TIME really can heal, if you let it."[Ting QiaoQiao]
"When TIME passes, it doesn't matter anymore."[
Amelia Hii]

"Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak … sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go."[Tim]

"
Don't waste your time on someone who doesn't appreciate you the way you should be appreciated."[Tim]


Tim =D



Thanks man. I really appreciate it :)
now you see how hurt am i?

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

安静

never have i ever thought about something like this happening to me. the thought never even flash through my mind. not even once.

Monday, September 6, 2010

you.

who gives a damn. now i finally know how can two hate each other so much. damn it what a damned fool i have been. now that i know your true colour. i guess that's really it. hell that's really a big fat joke. such lie, such nuisance. after giving in so much, after so much excuses, after defending you even though i know i'm the victim. haha. funny. real funny. i still don't believe i actually fell for it.
shit. good luck with him. i deserve a better girl. fuckin' hundred times better than you

Thursday, September 2, 2010

in 2 months

7/7/2010
1/9/2010


haha so michelle i really learnt from you :P and the effect is kinda nice too even though it's not like yours ranging from 1st year to 2nd and then the third year.

we're somehow quite different already even if it's only 2 months. i wondered how will we all look like 1 year later :D

finally i got to meet with you

ahahaha finally i saw him once again, here in the big KL city :D

if you saw a post i posted a few posts earlier which i wrote about him, you can imagine how i feel like when i finally get to see him in person once again =)


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so he came here around 6pm yesterday. then me and ernest and a SPECIAL girl for lao da(xD) accompanied him to connaught pasar malam, the known malaysia's longest night market. we bought a lot of food and stuffs. it was the first time i walked the night market so long around 3 hours. he even bought SEVEN pairs of crocs for his family back in sibu. (okay here's something funny: when he paid for the shoes, the tauke said this:"wah you bought so many, all buying for your CHILDREN ah?"-- in chinese) HAHAHAHAHA! CHILDREN! i'm not joking we heard that with our bare ears! (omg timo tsk tsk you looked that old to the ppl at here what hahaha) we were both like looking at each other with the 'what the heck' faces and then laughed like hell before we left the shoe stall xD
the taiwan burgers we had :)


and oya we met with jessie too! she was with her mahsa college's classmates ahaha such a coincidence to bump into her :) a long lost friend too. and still a very pretty and TALL girl which we've known haha :P
luckily she's not taller than me (actually she's standing on a lower ground, i forced her to) LOL

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After the walk we went back to my unit. Ernest let him sleep in his room while he slept on the sofa in the living room. (so touched T.T xD)

and so the whole night we were.. what do you expect we are boys what so of coz we're dealing with some serious game stuffs and AWESOME softwares. among the games he gave me were cod 6 modern warfare2, battlefield, counter strike 1.6v, fifa 10, tom clancy HAWK, guilty gear and devil may cry. and about the software i was mentioning, it was ADOBE PHOTOSHOP CS 5!! omg FIVE it was FIVE for crying out loud dude i really don't know how can you get this shit but i am really glad that i own it now too! it's even a cracked and 'genuine' version now somemore (HAHA lim yi! xPPP)

and besides that. he really did a huge favor for me last night. my comp went crazy for the last few days and i cant even play my games smoothly like i used to when i just came here to kl. i think maybe it's the problem with my ram and graphic card so last night i asked him to help me fix it. and wow as what a professional software technician will do, he succeeded. now i'm playing my games with a higher quality and resolutions with my nvidia gaming graphic card instead of the built-in intel grahpic card. (i was so stupid before this, before he helped switch my graphic cards. i was still using the built in one no wonder it lags so much when i play games last time LOL)

and after that i installed fifa 10 and played a match with him :D and finally we had some midnight chat until 5 sth. we talked a lot. about my stuffs and i guess some of you will know what's that 'stuff'. only with him i can express my own self and my secrets. it'd really been a long time since we last talked like this. and it really feels good, to be talking with your best friend, moreover your brother :)

just hope that you'll know how glad and happy i am to see you again despite all the games and softwares that you've given me LOL really hope to see you soon :D


maybe this raya break? ;) Timothy Ngu =)