packed, checked and ready to go!

So guess that this is it. After so many months of idle life, didn't even touch my book or pen, seriously, now finally gonna go start my new life at west m'sia tomorrow morning, studying A-levels by the mean time at UCSI KL under JPA scholarship for pharmacy course. No more playing but a whole new level of study. Gotta be serious this time *wink*

Thanks for everything, my family and all my lovely friends back in Sibu for the past 17 years, including the food aww kampua you know i will miss you so so much. And my ah ba ah ma, i will really really miss you guys. I love you so so much and forgive me if i made you angry sometimes though you loved me so much. I'm really glad to have a dad and mum like you :') and my dear brother, though sometimes we still argue but you're still my dearest machi, will definitely miss the times playing with you too :)

All the best to those that are going out to further their studies and also the ones that are staying back. And to all my friends, though now we're separated, we can still meet up when we got the chance right? I mean we must! I value our friendships much, very very much, hope you guys will do the same too.

Maybe we'll have new friends out there but i promise that i will never forget you guys, who laughed with me, cry with me, shared our happy and crazy moments together. Really glad to have you guys as my friends and i thank God for that. May God bless us all! Cheers! :D

p/s: Hope that i can fit in asap, so wish me luck :)

KL, here i come!

have you ever wondered? :)

♥

award winning stubborn girl ♥

i've been waiting for like ages already you dummy.

i can finally have a touch of my own

just got my lappy yesterday! wooh~ so happy can finally play or online in my own room and don't have to argue with my bro to play a comp at home already xD

and dear, i can finally play webcam with you again online faster faster x)

simply brilliance ♥

so touched..

too much romance in this vid. see it for yourself.

yeah, so i really do miss you ..

the longest night

.. i never miss you so much like tonight.

great great day :D

in case you didn't notice i changed my spec ♥

.. and bought myself a brand new HTC Legend android phone! wooooooh~ so happy =)

ت

... really wished that time could stop at that moment ❤

today today today.

第一垒, check~ ♥

girl of the night

omg have you ever seen a malaysian female singer as hot as her? woooooh~

to you know who you are =p

Aiyerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr very touched mo will come visit me everytime you online :DDDDDDDD

you're my favourite girl =3

A sweet sweet song :)))

It's time to grow up Lawrence

The bbq trip at YMCA today was fun. But then it was just not enough since you're not there. Was not quite in the mood to play actually but nevermind. Maybe another time okay dear? Really wish that it will be very, very soon.

Lawrence, please don't be that childish anymore. Sorry dear.

and, grow up my dear lawrence :)

girl. without you i'm lost

Another day without you with me, is like a blade that cuts right through me. When you call my heart stops beating, when you're gone, it wont stop bleeding. I can wait.. I can wait forever.

WHY MUST IT BE ME WHY MUST IT BE ME WHY MUST IT BE ME? ARGHHHHHHHHHH GOD PLEASE HELP ME

SADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD ..

words can't describe my feelings now. shyt.

how sweet ♥

A conversation of my friend on facebook recently:

Boy: Dear, do you love me? ♥

Girl: You think?

Boy: No. Because i m not rich, not hot and not tall enough ):

Girl: Because im not hot enough, im not tall enough, im not rich too. So do you?

Boy: Thats make us perfect! (:

Girl: Haha, we re so dramatic.

Boy: And perfect! (:

Prison Life :D

Just back from prison on 12th June. Such relieve, everybody congratulate me fast fast fast! xD

Generally it was quite boring, i mean literally, REALLY boring. But i did meet up with lotsa friends from all over Sarawak and even some iban hotties (some are mixed-blood we call them cibans(cina+iban) and found an etnic inside which are all hotties-the Kayan's) xD

But anyway despite all that, things that i did enjoy is i played flying fox, kayak+canoe-ing, shot M16 and got the no.1 in the Saban Idol singing contest :D And at least everyday i get to eat for FREE and after i'm out i still got 450 bucks as my allowance xDDDD


Alright now don't expect me to write out all the things that happened in there during this 2 months and a half. So i guess i'll just write them in note form, just some interesting or funny things when i'm inside this prison. Enjoy ت

1. You can never imagine how it feels like when you got your hair SHAVED.

2. And so before that you can start laughing at your friends as much as you can until you got your own hair shaved -_-

3. But anyway botaks are actually quite cute too laa ahahaha *winks*

4. Among 391 trainees, and for boys, 100+ are ibans, melanau blah3, 80+ are malays and only 30+ are CHINESE. Satu malaysia? hmm

5. Danny became the Penolong Penghulu and whereas Albert became ketua of Bravo company inside the camp (in case you don't know what's the rank, among all the plkn trainees, Penghulu is the highest rank so this means that Danny is the second boss inside the camp xD and about Albert, he's the head of a company(eg. Alpha, Bravo, Charlie and Delta company) and so this rank is just below Danny's)

6. The boys are called wira and girls, wirawati. And we will have to sing a song titled 'Wira Wirawati Negara' every morning inside (you can check it out at youtube if you wish to)

7. Now let tell you what's each company's 'speciality':
a. Alpha company(my company). Okay at first i thought my group was okay, with a handsome and steady iban ketua but then after some times i noticed that all the ORANG GILA in my camp, literally, are in my group (if you don't believe me just go ask Danny or Albert) zz moreover some even brought cartons of cigarette into the camp and got caught, doomed. Demerit. and there go our marks. So there goes the so call Alpha company -_-

b. Bravo company. Albert's the ketua so this company is okay. Nothing much significant to describe bout them. But they're very pro in ANYTHING. Eg. they were always the champion of sport competition or during some presentation stuffs. But it's just too bad in the end (you'll know what later down this post)

c. Charlie company. Okay this one's interesting. All the iban ah gua's are in this group. All three together and if you're interested you can see them in this photo from albert's album. And oya another thing is that their penolong ketua wirawati is a pretty Kayan girl called Martha, that looked REALLY REALLY like a chinese. (I speak with her in chinese on the first time i talked to her and she was like 'huh? apa kamu cakap?' then i was like 'O.o oh okay..' LOL)

d. Delta company. Ahahaha this company. Should i really be describing it? Argh for the sake of my readers, okay then. Two words: Pretty girls. (with additional four words: all ibans+cibans+kayans) I'm not bluffing, even Albert agreed with me last time(suprisingly) The iban ketua wirawati, Anin and another Kayan girl (mix with iban) that looked REALLY like a chinese again. Danny even thought she was a chinese and went to 'gao shua' her on the first day she came in xD

8. And guess what? Danny's really famous among the malay girls inside the camp. He even got a malay girlfriend inside that helps him wash dish and a milo for him everyday O.O

9. Everyday besides some activities sometimes, we were all just wait eat wait sleep whole day.

10. Six meals per day. All are okay besides their dinner, sucks. Thanks to instant noodles and mee sedaap i'm not starved to death yet xD

11. Meal time: 7am breakfast, 10.30 tea break, 12pm lunch, 4 tea break, 6 dinner and 10 supper. Between these intervals, sometimes such as night times if they don't have any activities for us we will be just wasting our time sitting in the dewan rotting zz

12. Knew a lot of chinese friends inside there. From Sibu to Mukah. From Bintangor to Sarikei:
a. First, my best idiotic ah gua friend aka my bedside partner that sleeps beside my bed. AH HUI! though he's always funny and stupid all the time but he's the one that's always by my side and the first one to cheer me up when i'm down in the camp especially during our volleyball competition. So i really really do appreciate him as my friend inside the camp. Thank you ah hui :D (just look at how cute is he in this photo) xD

b. And then my two ping pong coaches, Ah Hao and Jason. Two great friends too :)

c. And Albert's two best friends inside the camp: Sze Nin(a.k.a ah gao, the tallest boy in camp) and Hui Ci(the prettiest boy xD)

d. Other friends such as Min Jian(cutest boy), Jason Wong(cool and steady boy), Ah Biew(strong man), Ah Yong(ah dai that we always bully XD) and even Stephen(Jessica's boyfriend haha such coincidence)

13. My another bedside partner is a malay, Ahmad Nisfu. omg you wanna know how tough and pretty is his bodyline? Let the picture speaks for itself.

14. Overall my roomates are okay. They're funny and sociable.

15. One of the orang gila in Alpha company that i've spoken earlier, Ricky was in the same room as mine. zz everyday siao lai siao qu de lol but sometimes still kept laughing at his acts la

16. They confiscate our handphones then give us back on Sat after lunch and will take them back again on Sun after dinner.

17. And you know what? About every boy inside the camp do this each time they got back their hp: watch blue video(for exact, PORN) zz luckily i'm still clear in my mind and thank God that i can prevent myself from watching together with them LOL

18. And another thing that makes me angry evertime i think about it. zz there were two groups of chinese inside, one is the one i'm in and the another group that were all illiterated savages -_- 10 words that come out from their mouth 6 or 7 are swears, foul words. Gah can't hang out too long with them really can't stand them. So lucky i didn't go siao inside phew

19. We got the chance to borrow and wear baju melayu inside and it was actually quite nice too HAHA satu malaysia ma! xD

20. In the camp sports that we can take part are basketball, ping pong, volleyball, netball, street soccer and futsal.

21. Actually NO ONE found me or sms-ed me by themselves each time i opened my hp on Sat. that feeling sucks like you're forgotten

22. But what the heck as long as you know what happened on the 8th of May that will be my special special day, that's all that mattes x)

23. UNO became the most popular and enjoyable game inside.

24. I cut my nail so often like once i'm free after a few days then i will cut it. Now get how bored is it inside?

25. I learned how to play ping pong in there ahahaha

26. Everyday 6pm i will watch tv2 with Albert and my chinese gang together. A nice chinese drama with pretty girls :D

27. Found a few nice songs while inside the camp namely, Come Back To Me by Hikaru Utada and Here Without You by 3 Doors Down, that suits me so much when i'm inside there. haha

28. The only chance that we can go out of the camp is during Sundays when we're out for our religious activities. Before that when we're out we can go pasar buy stuffs or eat. And this is when we can eat kampua!! AHAHAHA

29. They started a singing competition in the middle of May. At first 40 trainees went for audition and 20 are picked(i'm one of them) And then 10 by 10 sang our songs on stage simultaneously and picked the last 10 to go into the finals(among these 10 were actually 3 chinese including me and Lawrence Kong too haha but then in the end both of them and some other went back home earlier so there were only 6 people competing in the finals on the last night)

30. The first interesting thing that we did inside was kayak-ing and canoe-ing.

31. Then after that we played flying fox. woot my first time. To say the truth it was really fun and exciting :D

32. The last few weeks of the camp we went out for our shooting competition. It was my first time holding a rifle too woot sak! I shot a M16! Did you? Ahahaha!

33. And the last interesting event, we went into the forest. We even set up our camps and campfire but then around 3pm that day rained very heavily so we had to head back to our dorm zz missed the chance to overnight in the forest. Haihhh

34. During the closing ceremony on 10th June many people cried but me. She told me that i'm heartless. issit? ahaha but i'm not preventing myself from crying it's just that i really don't have anything to miss inside the camp and i really really wish to come out from the camp that time. how can i cry? :)

35. In the end, Charlie got the first place by winning Bravo by 500marks only(Our markings are each group will have marks up to 50000 marks, so that 500 marks means only a small small win LOL) too bad Albert haihh (refer back to 7b)

36. That night after the closing ceremony was a grand party where every group can sing as a choir upstage and even teachers sang too.

37. Thank God so much that i got the first place in the singing competition finals that night, was so so happy to be the Saban Idol-9 in the camp since this competition started few years ago :DDD

38. Reached back Sibu on 12th June. Home sweet home! :DDDDDDD

39. Check out more of my photos from my facebook album or Albert's album. Cheers! :D (And i do appreciate any feedbacks for this post from you ;)



My dormates :)


With our Baju Loreng in soldier form xD

with Danny :D

Last photo of me and Albert before leaving the camp.


And besides that, got to know that my jpa reappeal succeeded too on the second last day in the camp. Thank God SO SO much for this and everything that He has given me. I felt so blessed :)

And yeah, congrats to everyone else that got this jpa scholarship offer and also, please appreciate it and give your utmost thanks to our almighty God above. Lastly, all the best in your future studies and undertakings. Cheers! =)

awww ♥

For you ❤

我不是碰不到更好的，
而是因为已经有了你，我不想再碰到更好的

我不是不会对别人动心，
而是因为已经有了你，
我就觉得没必要再对其他人动心

我不是不会爱上别的人，
而是我更加懂得珍惜你，
能在一起不容易，
已经选定的人就不要随便放手

世界上的好人数不清，但遇到你就已经足够
即使你不是最好的，
甚至不是最适合我的，
但却是我最珍惜的
缺点可以改正，性格可以磨合，
但机会失去了就再也没有了

有人说：爱，
是一种责任
现在我才明白， 原来责任， 就是一辈子
现在想想为什么那么多在激情之后变平淡了的感情能

一步步坚持到了最后
除了已经习惯，
爱到深处之外
应该还有两个人的互相搀扶，
不离不弃。