突然想起某个人，一阵傻笑。然后，一阵失落。

Those times.

"You may be able to find someone to replace that somebody, 

but you still won’t be able to replace all the memories."

You're the sixth, you're the last.

The Last - Wongfu Productions.

And maybe, just maybe, you feel hope.

I almost do.

And I hope sometimes you wonder about me.

This is the last time I'm asking you this.

I love how their voices blend together so perfectly.

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"This is the last time I'm asking you this,

put my name on the top of your list.

This is the last time I'm asking you why,

you break my heart in the blink of an eye."

  

Remembering her comes in flashbacks and echoes.

"Touching her was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you.
Memorizing her was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song.
Fighting with her was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there’s no right answer.
Regretting her was like wishing you never found out love could be that strong.

Losing her was blue like I’d never known.
Missing her was dark grey all alone.
Forgetting her was like trying to know somebody you've never met.
But loving her was red.
Loving her was red."

Red -Taylor Swift.

不甘心。

德豪 你嫉妒什么啊。
可是就觉得很可惜，真的很可惜。

Sigh.

I guess it's inevitable.

Sometimes I just feel, worthless.

Never knew it still affects me so much.

請忘了我還 一個人。

也許未來 你會找到 懂你疼你 更好的人
下段旅程 你一定要
更幸福豐盛。
You're becoming just like her 2 years ago. 

These people.

It's amazing how one thing leads to another.

I really thank God for these people.

If I have not met them, I really don't know how would I be like right now. 

  

仿佛还是昨天，可是昨天已非常遥远。

差一点 骗了自己骗了你 ，
爱与被爱不一定成正比，

我知道被疼是一种运气 。

Back in action.

Library has become my second home for the past few days.
Two quizzes this week had turn me into a crazy study-freak.
Going to uni and only leaving the library at night.
The pressure I was experiencing was really no play play.
I didn't take it seriously for my first quiz about a month ago.
In fact I even slack everyday without doing proper daily revisions and only started studying like, 2 days before the quiz.
So ever since I got back my first quiz result, I sworn to study harder if I don't wanna get disappointed like that again.
So the pressure I put on myself is a lil' too high this time.
To the point that I'm really physically and mentally drained. Burnt out.
And of course some other stuffs that really bothered me for quite a while already.

But, God is faithful.
Through this period of time, I got to know the 'guy gang' from our Pharmacy group when I was in the library.
It was a really huge group of guys(we're like a gang of gangsters when we were walking around lol)
They are really really cool.
Before I knew them, I never know they could be so funny but yet so serious when it comes to our studies.
Seriously, sometimes I can't stop laughing talking with them.
Like when you get to know someone more, they can really make you za dao sometimes haha
But then I was intimidated(in a good way), they're really smart too when it comes to their studies.
During our revisions together, you can see they really know a lot and you really can learn a lot from them too if you hang around with them.
It motivates you to work harder and become better too.
Like you can have all the fun you want when you're with them but at the same time you won't lose your feet and will still study hard as how a student should.
All in all, they're just really fun to be with.
Like a whole gang of brothers :)

To be honest, I had a really really rough and messed up week.
I wouldn't have made it on my own.
Thank God I found them.
At least I'm happy with them.
At least I can laugh loudly with them.
At least I'm back to my old self, the happy and cheerful guy with them around.
At least I'm myself again.

Guess that sometimes you just need to find the right people to have around in your life.

Got to go now, time to go out and celebrate with them again.
The post-exam feel sure feels good, especially with them. :D
Ciao!

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Appreciate people who make you laugh, people who appreciate you. Let go of those that don't.

    

Nothing

I'm not okay.
Especially when I'm alone, I tend to overthink.
Loneliness never fails to sink in.
So I'm finding happiness.
In the pursuit of my own happiness.
Find myself companies, people who I can be happy with.
People who can make me laugh.
Just so that I could be distracted from the sadness for a while. 
But how can I be okay? You used to be my company. 
I'm really really not good with this kind of changes.

Square one.

When September ends.

We've always joked about this song when September ends and the first day of October came.
But I never knew it could make me this emotional.

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"Come here.. You know they say life is short.
You wake up one day, and on that day. All your dreams and, everything you wished for and you wanted, gone just like that.
People, people get old and you know, things change and situations change and what I want is, I just I want this moment right now, this day and my feelings for you, the way you look right now, how I look at you, I just want this to last forever, you know."

"And it will, I mean no matter what we've always had this and had each other and nothing can change that. 
But I just want you to know, no matter what you'll always have somebody here for you, always. 
I'm never gonna leave you, I'm never gonna leave you. 
I love you."

"I know."

"Don't let go of me."

"I won't."

"Don't let go of me."

"I won't, I won't."

:'(

the vow.

濫好人

就，觉得你开心，我也就会开心。我就是这么傻。