And in the end. Still. I lost

一段以为会天长地久的爱情走到了落幕的时候。

一个以为会执她之手，与她偕老的爱人走到了分手的时候。

我们该如何面对。

该如何给这段感情一个交代，该如何给爱过的，也正爱着的那个人一个结局？

解决无非是两种

纠缠与不纠缠

是的，我理解，我清楚，我明白

眼睁睁的看着全心全意付出的感情

那个爱着的人离开

是多么残忍，是多么绝望的事

可是残忍和绝望不是纠缠对方的理由

是的，我理解

纠缠是想挽回对方的心

留住对方的情

希望重新开始

将感情继续下去，

给彼此一个新的机会～

给爱一个机会去厮守～

可是，分手的时候。越是纠缠不休。越会让自己伤的更加体无完肤。伤害的不止是自己的心和身。还会让对方，面对你的纠缠说出更绝情的话，甚至做出更绝情的事。

纠缠也践踏了自己的尊严。你越是不死心，不放弃，越是挽留，越是纠缠。只会让对方看轻你，让他走的更快，更远。

这样就把自己从绝望推入了万劫不复的地狱。

如果他真的要分手，那就让他走吧，干净利落的走。笑着让他走。

即使心里已经哭成了海。也不要去纠缠，挽留。

大方的让他走。也许，某天，他还会想起你，还会想起你们的旧情，记起你的好．

我深信

他应该很了解我对他的感情

能够体会出，我对他付出的是真心

既然

他不肯留下，那我何必纠缠

那就放他走，给他自由。

可是，我不纠缠不等于我不想他，不等于，我没有爱过他。

我思念他的心，依然折磨我在日日夜夜。

往往别人不经意的一句话。就能让我想起他。

走在寒冷的街上，再也没有他温暖的手握住我冰冷的手。

那些孤寂的夜里，再也不会有他温暖的拥抱温暖我。

每个失眠的夜，再也没有他的句句关心，字字问候。

甚至电话也一声不响，陪着我沉默。曾经为了他一个电话而欢喜不已

他不在，时间却不会停止不前

如果时间可以停止

我希望

时间停在我们最相爱的那段日子

他不在

我的生活还要继续

一如已往

心底的伤，欲盖弥彰

自己的伤，自己解决

自己的心情，自己整理

自己的疼痛，自己埋葬

但，不会找他

我能做的就是咬着牙自己对自己说，

坚持下去。

卷缩在角落，等待着伤口平复，

我们都是凡尘男女

挣不出纠缠的情网

逃不过爱与被爱的旋涡

心碎神伤后

是漫无止境的寂寞

幸福的感觉也许只能刹那

刹那过后，是一个人的落寞

上帝让我在错误的时间遇上了你

我...哭了

它让我在正确的时间离开了你

你...会哭吗？

好想你能知道

不纠缠，不证明我不爱你

不纠缠，不证明我不想你

不纠缠，不证明我没伤

只是不纠缠

是我能够为我们曾经的爱

能为你做的最后一件事。

i need some rest. so sleepy :O

在你面前我始终还是这么的无法自拔。

another chinese production. *proud*

the girl in the mv is so sweet ♥ :P

songs shared from Bernard from Alwyn ahaha

a very very nice song by Julia :)



How did we ever come to this
I never thought you'd be
Someone I'd have to miss
And there I was caught in your game
Needing answers that never came
And we took a chance
You said you were strong
Strong enough
But you were wrong.

And now I'm deafened by your silence
Blinded by the tears
If you're looking for forgiveness
You won't find that here
Cause you lied your way to heartbreak
And now its all too clear
That you will never be.

Look at her
She won't ever compare
You can say you're sorry
But I still don't care
Was she worth this mess
Was she worth this pain
You can say it's her fault
But you're both to blame

And now I'm deafened by your silence
Blinded by the tears
If you're looking for forgiveness
You won't find that here
Cause you lied your way to heartbreak
And now its all too clear
That you will never be.

Looking back it was all so easy
I hope you know you're my last mistake
Don't come around and say you need me
I won't stay.

Now I know that you were so deceiving
was it fun for you to walk away
I hope you liked it
Cause she's so damn easy
You won't change

Now I'm deafened by your silence
Blinded by the tears
If you're looking for forgiveness
You won't find that here
Cause you lied your way to heartbreak
And now its all too clear
That you will never be
That you will never be.

****************************


And also another song covered by Julia. Airplanes. lovely ♥

to my man here bernard

BERNARD!! HAHAHA thank you so much man. after seeing your post i was smiling. really. thank you. i was touched. very few friends will be as concern as you and to care much about me and i really do appreciate a friend like you :)


thank you again. and yeah i will be tough =)

when time passes.

这一刻突然觉得好熟悉
像昨天今天同时在放映
我这句语气原来好像你
不就是我们爱过的证据

差一点骗了自己骗了你
爱与被爱不一定成正比
我知道被疼是一种运气
但我无法完全交出自己

努力为你改变
却变不了预留的伏笔
以为在你身边那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天已非常遥远
但闭上双眼我还看得见

可惜不是你陪我到最後
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔

那一段我们曾心贴着心
我想我更有权力关心你
可能你已走进别人风景
多希望也有星光的投影
努力为你改变
却变不了预留的伏笔
以为在你身边那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天已非常遥远
但闭上双眼我还看得见

可惜不是你陪我到最後
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔
可惜不是你陪我到最後
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能温暖我胸口

现在已不再是怨恨，而是 可惜。

Goodbye hyperhidrosis

Finally the day came. Just went to a surgery for my sweaty hand palms (hyperhidrosis fyi). I've been looking forward for this day since so long ago(it's kinda weird i'm keen for an op hoh? lol)

But if you're in my situation you'll know how hard is it to bare with a pair of sweaty hand palms everyday. Especially when you wanna shake hands with the others or do stuffs in school like copying notes or doing homework, and at one side sweat are coming out like crazy from your hand palms. :(

Anyway so glad that it's all over. Thank you to all my friends that wished me the best during my operation period. I really really appreciate it. And i'm doing fine now thank you guys my hand palms are not sweating at all now :D and most of all thank you God for curing me! This is the best present i got this year =)

(first time going through a surgery, first time being drugged and passed out, first time lying on a hospital bed, first time eating the breakfast provided by the hospital, and first time being pampered by so many missies xD)

Also got to meet up with my parents. They came to acc me through the operation. :D it's 3 months already since i last saw my mummy :O so happy just to see her again =))) after that went to Genting to relax (actually to rest) i just went through an operation for goodness sake! haha my body was kinda weak and the area around my chest is still aching that few days. the doc also asked me to have enough rest for that 2-3 days.


Aww still miss the air cond in the hotel rooms and the 'natural air cond' outside :(
it's ordinary that a boy will wish for a girl to be beside him and to accompany him throughout his weakest period of life, even a simple text will do. but i didn't hear a thing from you, and to be frank, i was kinda disappointed.

movie for the night

wow it have really been a while since a movie will make me drop tears

--aftershock.


a really really touching movie. i gotta admit how amazing are the acting skills of the actors and actresses in this movie. (this movie is available in pps too so check it out when you're free.)

trust me, i don't simply recommend movies on my blog. ;)

credits to terrence! ;)

Christina Perri - Jar of hearts.

I know I cant take one more step towards you
Cause all thats waiting is regret
And don't you know im not your ghost anymore
You lost the love
I loved the most

I learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are
Runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

It took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all you're promises

And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are
runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

can i don't say ?

The sweetest part in life is to carry the memories in it, but the toughest part is to say goodbye to the person who is behind all those memories.

有一种朋友叫。 红颜知己

男生说……

有种女生让我很喜欢，

却不忍动情。

跟那种女生在一起时，

会有种温暖的感觉，

那感觉并不出自一时的冲动,

而是来自于彼此心灵的了解。

真的，跟那种女生在一起时，

只有彼此心中的感动和心灵的交会，

没错，

当你发现她的心和你是如此贴近时，

常会想给她个结实的拥抱，

但仅仅在这个想法萌生后的一瞬间，

你们只会相视一笑，

有些东西是比爱情更珍贵的。

这种女生当女朋友是种浪费……

我害怕她做的我女朋友后,

我必须每天守着电话等着她的声音出现，

我害怕我必须说些花言巧语的话哄她，

更加害怕现实的束缚，

会限制住纯洁的心。

这种女生，

喜欢，

但我不会动情，

或者，

这就叫红颜知己……

既不用为情所困，

为她的行为控制自己喜怒哀乐，

又能享有心灵上的交流。

有很多人都为交不到女朋友所苦，

但我觉得，

假如没有了这种知己，

人生，

便多了许多遗憾……

女生说……

有一些男生，

很令我动心，

但却不会动情。

怎么说呢，

因为他们给我的感觉像朋友，

真正的朋友 。

我可以和他们很坦诚的谈论彼此的爱情、婚姻、人生……

以及种种的烦恼……

在他们面前，

我会忘记自己是女生，

就不会撒娇、嫉妒、小心眼……

我和他们各站在天平的两端，

我们可以一同看电影、郊游回来，

在车站挥挥手，各自去等自己的车，走自己的路。

这种感觉……

是一种很难用语言能形容的愉悦……

信不信 ，

跟这些男生相处在一起，

甚至比跟同类的女生相处来的愉快。

女生的聚会，是黏稠稠的，

像一锅浓粥，温暖在胸，

但是吃多了会撑，一眨眼又饿，

而且很多女生都为情所困，

谈来谈去总是心有千千结，

别人管也管不完，跟这些男生相处，

我很惊讶……

他们不必从文字、故事的迷林披荆斩棘，

就能一眼洞穿人生的奥秘 .

甚至开始为旁边的同行者掌灯，

能结交有智慧、理想与热情的朋友，

是人一生莫大的幸福吧 。

我是这样着迷于他们高贵的气质，

也感谢他们把我当「朋友」看待，

不因为我是女生，

就随便说些甜言蜜语来哄我，

或者根本不睬我 。

如果追求人生的伴侣也必须如此相知相惜，

那我实在「舍不得」把这些男生当成男朋友，

我害怕一旦变成男女朋友，

我就会计较他不送我回家……

他不说些好听的动心话……

他宁可送我「尼采与上帝」也不送一粒巧克力……

我还担心从此他只要我乖乖的陪在一旁，

微笑地看他在众人间侃侃而谈，

我发问的机会都没有。

男女之间，其实不只有爱情……

有种友情，是只可会意不可言传的。

彼此之间有种惺惺相惜的感觉，

不必害怕别人的误会，

因为彼此心中坦荡，

很喜欢这种“兄弟”之称的友谊，

这种朋友有种信赖的安全感，

可以肆无忌惮的说笑，

天马行空的胡扯，

彼此之间没有包袱，

但有种珍惜，

是对友谊的珍惜。

你也许会对他(她）撒娇，

但不会妒忌他（她）对别人也如此，

不用再他面前装做淑女（或不用在她面前装做绅士），

有种朋友即使很久没见也不会生疏，

相见时的相视一笑，

便会有种心有灵犀的感觉，

和他（她）在一起时，

不必担心会背叛你，

因为他只会给你默默地支持，

即使你受伤了，

他也会给你做坚强的后盾。

心情不好时，

他(她)会装傻逗你笑，

生病时，他(她)会叮嘱你要小心什么，

每逢特别节日时，

他（她)会发一条简信祝福你，

很多人都希望有这种友谊，

因为它不需要负担与责任，

我想这种友谊也要讲机缘吧，

当初应该是这样吗?

came across with this on fb.


...

触景伤情

Just came back from a wedding lunch.

Remember when you told me about weddings and the feasts, when we can enjoy the atmosphere of the happiness together?

Yeah, i still remember.

happy birthday ;)

到不了的地方叫远方
回不去的地方叫家乡
爱不到的人叫回忆
不能倒流的时间叫后悔
忘不了的伤痛是因为依然我爱你
你 现在会在哪里

guess what, another quote from our famous, one and only, LIM YI da jie! XD

EMO SI ahh you! but, i like it. lol