remember what you wrote in my autograph book

如果要走，请你记得我.

-借口。周杰伦

in the end songs still describes it the best

this song. listen. even if most of you have already heard of it. you'll know lau yee tsin.

只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天
睡着的大提琴 安静的旧旧的

我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道 你没有舍不得

你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我 也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开

你要我说多难堪 我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份 包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多 我会一直好好过

你已经远远离开 我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份 安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你 是因为我太爱你

We don't talk anymore. And you know what the saddest part is?
We used to talk everyday.

damn jackson you know me man

came over this in my man's blog. damn it's lyrics are so vivid, a little too vivid.

Now that it's all said and done
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
And what you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of me

Well I never saw it coming
I should've started running
A long long time ago
And I never thought to doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
And now i'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of others opened up
So did my eyes, so I could see
That you never were the best for me

Well I never saw it coming
I should've started running
A long long time ago
And I never thought to doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, More than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
Now I'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you

'Cause I got over you
'Cause I got over you
I got over you
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you.

I did, I did.

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know (i know)
And know when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

this is why you're still my best friend up until now

this is what i saw on my fb wall today:

Dear Lawrence Kiing ت my best of best BRO,

"TIME really can heal, if you let it."[Ting QiaoQiao]
"When TIME passes, it doesn't matter anymore."[Amelia Hii]
"Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak … sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go."[Tim]
"Don't waste your time on someone who doesn't appreciate you the way you should be appreciated."[Tim]

Tim =D

Thanks man. I really appreciate it :)
now you see how hurt am i?

安静

never have i ever thought about something like this happening to me. the thought never even flash through my mind. not even once.

you.

who gives a damn. now i finally know how can two hate each other so much. damn it what a damned fool i have been. now that i know your true colour. i guess that's really it. hell that's really a big fat joke. such lie, such nuisance. after giving in so much, after so much excuses, after defending you even though i know i'm the victim. haha. funny. real funny. i still don't believe i actually fell for it.

shit. good luck with him. i deserve a better girl. fuckin' hundred times better than you

in 2 months

7/7/2010

1/9/2010

haha so michelle i really learnt from you :P and the effect is kinda nice too even though it's not like yours ranging from 1st year to 2nd and then the third year.

we're somehow quite different already even if it's only 2 months. i wondered how will we all look like 1 year later :D

finally i got to meet with you

ahahaha finally i saw him once again, here in the big KL city :D

if you saw a post i posted a few posts earlier which i wrote about him, you can imagine how i feel like when i finally get to see him in person once again =)

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so he came here around 6pm yesterday. then me and ernest and a SPECIAL girl for lao da(xD) accompanied him to connaught pasar malam, the known malaysia's longest night market. we bought a lot of food and stuffs. it was the first time i walked the night market so long around 3 hours. he even bought SEVEN pairs of crocs for his family back in sibu. (okay here's something funny: when he paid for the shoes, the tauke said this:"wah you bought so many, all buying for your CHILDREN ah?"-- in chinese) HAHAHAHAHA! CHILDREN! i'm not joking we heard that with our bare ears! (omg timo tsk tsk you looked that old to the ppl at here what hahaha) we were both like looking at each other with the 'what the heck' faces and then laughed like hell before we left the shoe stall xD

the taiwan burgers we had :)

and oya we met with jessie too! she was with her mahsa college's classmates ahaha such a coincidence to bump into her :) a long lost friend too. and still a very pretty and TALL girl which we've known haha :P

luckily she's not taller than me (actually she's standing on a lower ground, i forced her to) LOL

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After the walk we went back to my unit. Ernest let him sleep in his room while he slept on the sofa in the living room. (so touched T.T xD)

and so the whole night we were.. what do you expect we are boys what so of coz we're dealing with some serious game stuffs and AWESOME softwares. among the games he gave me were cod 6 modern warfare2, battlefield, counter strike 1.6v, fifa 10, tom clancy HAWK, guilty gear and devil may cry. and about the software i was mentioning, it was ADOBE PHOTOSHOP CS 5!! omg FIVE it was FIVE for crying out loud dude i really don't know how can you get this shit but i am really glad that i own it now too! it's even a cracked and 'genuine' version now somemore (HAHA lim yi! xPPP)

and besides that. he really did a huge favor for me last night. my comp went crazy for the last few days and i cant even play my games smoothly like i used to when i just came here to kl. i think maybe it's the problem with my ram and graphic card so last night i asked him to help me fix it. and wow as what a professional software technician will do, he succeeded. now i'm playing my games with a higher quality and resolutions with my nvidia gaming graphic card instead of the built-in intel grahpic card. (i was so stupid before this, before he helped switch my graphic cards. i was still using the built in one no wonder it lags so much when i play games last time LOL)

and after that i installed fifa 10 and played a match with him :D and finally we had some midnight chat until 5 sth. we talked a lot. about my stuffs and i guess some of you will know what's that 'stuff'. only with him i can express my own self and my secrets. it'd really been a long time since we last talked like this. and it really feels good, to be talking with your best friend, moreover your brother :)

just hope that you'll know how glad and happy i am to see you again despite all the games and softwares that you've given me LOL really hope to see you soon :D

maybe this raya break? ;) Timothy Ngu =)

maybe one more haha

"Eleven Hints for Life"

1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return.
But what is more painful is to love someone and never
find the courage to let that person know how you feel.

2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who
means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was
never meant to be and you just have to let go.

3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a
porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away
feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

4. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose
it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been
missing until it arrives.

5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an
hour to like someone, and a day to love someone-but it
takes a lifetime to forget someone.

6. Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth,
even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you
smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day
seem bright.

7. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go,
be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and
one chance to do all the things you want to do.

8. Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If you feel that it
hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.

9. A careless word may kindle strife. A cruel word may wreck
a life. A timely word may level stress. But a loving word may
heal and bless.

10. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best
of everything they just make the most of everything that comes
along their way.

11. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with
a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone
around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die,
you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.

:)

found this nice quote somewhere

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by.

So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts.

Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

allen! have you watched this?! lol

gahhhhhh this is movie is just too awesome! just like the previous 2. everybody it's a definite must watch and you really gotta watch it for yourself to witness it's awesomeness. oh wow till now i'm still amazed by the dances in the movie.

(warning, a bit of spoiler for you guys: the robot dance in the first round(oh my goshhhh i like that dude with the sunglasses which is specialised in robot moves. you'll be so overwhelmed just looking at him dancing, especially a part when there's this 'machine gun' sound from the background song when he's vibrating his body like a freak! LOL) and then the water scene in the second round. here i like the teenage kid, Adam G.Sevani(as Moose) dancing in the water, stepping on water making water splashing around into the air all over the place wooooh. and the final round of battle- the 'neonbug' cloth (i guess if you watched the trailer you'll see the cloth they wore during the dance that were glowing so damn cool) and also the casting of 4 small CUTE lil' kids break dancing =3

and not forgetting the hot hot main dancers Rick Malambri(as Luke) and Sharni Vinson(as Natalie). shit they both are just SO HOT! ;D

anyway guess that this is all that i have to tell you. It's BFABB!! (watch the movie for yourself to know what does this word mean hiak!)

LAO DA!

wahhhhhhhh never knew that my biggest and most loyal blog fan is just around me all the time. ERNEST!! THANK YOU!! (told you i'll express my gratitude here someday) HAHAHAHA!

p/s: but please la, don't stalk me so seriously like that la xD (and DON'T you tell me 'congrats' again i tell you)

blessed Sundays

everytime it feels so good on Sunday-- Church.

at church i got the chance to meet up with a lot of my friends. lovely lovely friends hiak and i enjoy our p&w and the preaching of our dear Pastor Kevin. then after that i like our cell group time and the time we spent eating together and chatting. it feels like a big happy family gathering around again from different areas of the whole KL on this day. words really can't describe the happy feeling from within.

today after cell group my cousin brought me and some of our cg members to go shopping at one u. chatted with my da jie in church and we talked like we were just like old friends. ahahaha we chatted about ANYTHING. From her stories to my stories. Got to know her alot too, told me that what kind of boys that chased her before but got rejected, so funny then she told me that her "eye-sight" is not that high la but i still wonder why a girl like her still doesn't have a boyfriend lol she said 'shun qi zi ran' la when God want me to meet the right person then i'll meet him. i nodded slowly agreeing to what i've heard..

so then we all went for dinner at a very very famous mamak stall for nasi lemak ayam walao you should see how many ppl went there and all the plates placed on their tables are nasi lemak lol and then my cousin fetch me back home. (and omg actually wang lee hom was there at One U that night and we actually FORGOT! -_- if we've stayed there longer we could have seen him! gahhh~ TT)

i still think of you, everytime. even if the other girls are attractive. i still can't get you outta my mind. i think i'm just a little too not over you. how can you be that cruel?