damn jackson you know me man

came over this in my man's blog. damn it's lyrics are so vivid, a little too vivid.

Now that it's all said and done
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
And what you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of me

Well I never saw it coming
I should've started running
A long long time ago
And I never thought to doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
And now i'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of others opened up
So did my eyes, so I could see
That you never were the best for me

Well I never saw it coming
I should've started running
A long long time ago
And I never thought to doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, More than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
Now I'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you

'Cause I got over you
'Cause I got over you
I got over you
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you.

I did, I did.

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know (i know)
And know when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

this is why you're still my best friend up until now

this is what i saw on my fb wall today:

Dear Lawrence Kiing ت my best of best BRO,

"TIME really can heal, if you let it."[Ting QiaoQiao]
"When TIME passes, it doesn't matter anymore."[Amelia Hii]
"Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak … sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go."[Tim]
"Don't waste your time on someone who doesn't appreciate you the way you should be appreciated."[Tim]

Tim =D

Thanks man. I really appreciate it :)
now you see how hurt am i?

安静

never have i ever thought about something like this happening to me. the thought never even flash through my mind. not even once.

you.

who gives a damn. now i finally know how can two hate each other so much. damn it what a damned fool i have been. now that i know your true colour. i guess that's really it. hell that's really a big fat joke. such lie, such nuisance. after giving in so much, after so much excuses, after defending you even though i know i'm the victim. haha. funny. real funny. i still don't believe i actually fell for it.

shit. good luck with him. i deserve a better girl. fuckin' hundred times better than you

in 2 months

7/7/2010

1/9/2010

haha so michelle i really learnt from you :P and the effect is kinda nice too even though it's not like yours ranging from 1st year to 2nd and then the third year.

we're somehow quite different already even if it's only 2 months. i wondered how will we all look like 1 year later :D

finally i got to meet with you

ahahaha finally i saw him once again, here in the big KL city :D

if you saw a post i posted a few posts earlier which i wrote about him, you can imagine how i feel like when i finally get to see him in person once again =)

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so he came here around 6pm yesterday. then me and ernest and a SPECIAL girl for lao da(xD) accompanied him to connaught pasar malam, the known malaysia's longest night market. we bought a lot of food and stuffs. it was the first time i walked the night market so long around 3 hours. he even bought SEVEN pairs of crocs for his family back in sibu. (okay here's something funny: when he paid for the shoes, the tauke said this:"wah you bought so many, all buying for your CHILDREN ah?"-- in chinese) HAHAHAHAHA! CHILDREN! i'm not joking we heard that with our bare ears! (omg timo tsk tsk you looked that old to the ppl at here what hahaha) we were both like looking at each other with the 'what the heck' faces and then laughed like hell before we left the shoe stall xD

the taiwan burgers we had :)

and oya we met with jessie too! she was with her mahsa college's classmates ahaha such a coincidence to bump into her :) a long lost friend too. and still a very pretty and TALL girl which we've known haha :P

luckily she's not taller than me (actually she's standing on a lower ground, i forced her to) LOL

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After the walk we went back to my unit. Ernest let him sleep in his room while he slept on the sofa in the living room. (so touched T.T xD)

and so the whole night we were.. what do you expect we are boys what so of coz we're dealing with some serious game stuffs and AWESOME softwares. among the games he gave me were cod 6 modern warfare2, battlefield, counter strike 1.6v, fifa 10, tom clancy HAWK, guilty gear and devil may cry. and about the software i was mentioning, it was ADOBE PHOTOSHOP CS 5!! omg FIVE it was FIVE for crying out loud dude i really don't know how can you get this shit but i am really glad that i own it now too! it's even a cracked and 'genuine' version now somemore (HAHA lim yi! xPPP)

and besides that. he really did a huge favor for me last night. my comp went crazy for the last few days and i cant even play my games smoothly like i used to when i just came here to kl. i think maybe it's the problem with my ram and graphic card so last night i asked him to help me fix it. and wow as what a professional software technician will do, he succeeded. now i'm playing my games with a higher quality and resolutions with my nvidia gaming graphic card instead of the built-in intel grahpic card. (i was so stupid before this, before he helped switch my graphic cards. i was still using the built in one no wonder it lags so much when i play games last time LOL)

and after that i installed fifa 10 and played a match with him :D and finally we had some midnight chat until 5 sth. we talked a lot. about my stuffs and i guess some of you will know what's that 'stuff'. only with him i can express my own self and my secrets. it'd really been a long time since we last talked like this. and it really feels good, to be talking with your best friend, moreover your brother :)

just hope that you'll know how glad and happy i am to see you again despite all the games and softwares that you've given me LOL really hope to see you soon :D

maybe this raya break? ;) Timothy Ngu =)

maybe one more haha

"Eleven Hints for Life"

1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return.
But what is more painful is to love someone and never
find the courage to let that person know how you feel.

2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who
means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was
never meant to be and you just have to let go.

3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a
porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away
feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

4. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose
it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been
missing until it arrives.

5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an
hour to like someone, and a day to love someone-but it
takes a lifetime to forget someone.

6. Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth,
even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you
smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day
seem bright.

7. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go,
be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and
one chance to do all the things you want to do.

8. Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If you feel that it
hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.

9. A careless word may kindle strife. A cruel word may wreck
a life. A timely word may level stress. But a loving word may
heal and bless.

10. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best
of everything they just make the most of everything that comes
along their way.

11. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with
a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone
around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die,
you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.

:)

found this nice quote somewhere

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by.

So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts.

Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

allen! have you watched this?! lol

gahhhhhh this is movie is just too awesome! just like the previous 2. everybody it's a definite must watch and you really gotta watch it for yourself to witness it's awesomeness. oh wow till now i'm still amazed by the dances in the movie.

(warning, a bit of spoiler for you guys: the robot dance in the first round(oh my goshhhh i like that dude with the sunglasses which is specialised in robot moves. you'll be so overwhelmed just looking at him dancing, especially a part when there's this 'machine gun' sound from the background song when he's vibrating his body like a freak! LOL) and then the water scene in the second round. here i like the teenage kid, Adam G.Sevani(as Moose) dancing in the water, stepping on water making water splashing around into the air all over the place wooooh. and the final round of battle- the 'neonbug' cloth (i guess if you watched the trailer you'll see the cloth they wore during the dance that were glowing so damn cool) and also the casting of 4 small CUTE lil' kids break dancing =3

and not forgetting the hot hot main dancers Rick Malambri(as Luke) and Sharni Vinson(as Natalie). shit they both are just SO HOT! ;D

anyway guess that this is all that i have to tell you. It's BFABB!! (watch the movie for yourself to know what does this word mean hiak!)

LAO DA!

wahhhhhhhh never knew that my biggest and most loyal blog fan is just around me all the time. ERNEST!! THANK YOU!! (told you i'll express my gratitude here someday) HAHAHAHA!

p/s: but please la, don't stalk me so seriously like that la xD (and DON'T you tell me 'congrats' again i tell you)

blessed Sundays

everytime it feels so good on Sunday-- Church.

at church i got the chance to meet up with a lot of my friends. lovely lovely friends hiak and i enjoy our p&w and the preaching of our dear Pastor Kevin. then after that i like our cell group time and the time we spent eating together and chatting. it feels like a big happy family gathering around again from different areas of the whole KL on this day. words really can't describe the happy feeling from within.

today after cell group my cousin brought me and some of our cg members to go shopping at one u. chatted with my da jie in church and we talked like we were just like old friends. ahahaha we chatted about ANYTHING. From her stories to my stories. Got to know her alot too, told me that what kind of boys that chased her before but got rejected, so funny then she told me that her "eye-sight" is not that high la but i still wonder why a girl like her still doesn't have a boyfriend lol she said 'shun qi zi ran' la when God want me to meet the right person then i'll meet him. i nodded slowly agreeing to what i've heard..

so then we all went for dinner at a very very famous mamak stall for nasi lemak ayam walao you should see how many ppl went there and all the plates placed on their tables are nasi lemak lol and then my cousin fetch me back home. (and omg actually wang lee hom was there at One U that night and we actually FORGOT! -_- if we've stayed there longer we could have seen him! gahhh~ TT)

i still think of you, everytime. even if the other girls are attractive. i still can't get you outta my mind. i think i'm just a little too not over you. how can you be that cruel?

found this link shared by my bro LOL

1 尊重你的选择
　　
2 在最后见面的时候不提以前的事
　　
3 也不要哭
　　
4 如果还是哭了也要微笑着
　　
5 说声谢谢，感谢你曾给的爱
　　
6 说声对不起，为自己的没用，最后还是让你选择了放弃
　　
7 把你写给我的信，送我的礼物和我们的照片好好收起
　　
8 有些答应过你的承诺还是要坚守，例如不抽烟，不喝酒，病了要吃药
　　
9 不要以任何理由给你打电话

10 当别人问起我们的时候，要说自己不对
　　
11 如果你发来信息问候的话，要说自己很好，同样问候你
　　
12 生日那天向着你所在的那片天空说生日快乐，哪怕你听不到
　　
13 如果我们有缘再偶遇的话，用微笑来代替我想说的一切
　　
14 如果永远都不会再相见的话也用微笑去面对每一天
　　
15 学会忘记，为了你，为了自己，也为了爱我的人

but i can't be fine, how can i possibly be better dear? :'(

i'll change i'll change, i'll change

１.未成熟男人会叫你猪头、亲爱的、傻瓜之类的成熟的男人会叫你宝宝。而且是心疼的。

２.未成熟男人会很用力的和你接吻，不管你是不是喜欢，是不是允许。成熟的男人会在情到浓处时闭上眼睛轻轻的吻你，让你能感受他细致的爱。

３.未成熟男人在和你打电话或夜聊时，不会太在意你是否想不想睡觉，而由自己决定是不是挂线。成熟的男人会不停的关心你是否困，是否会耽误你其它安排，然后再决定下一步。甚至自己很累只要你不想睡就会陪你。

４.未成熟男人总是问你东问你西，今天做了什么什么，和谁谁怎样，问题多的数不清，却从不自己动脑子去想想很多显而易见的问题。成熟的男人很少会问你太多问题，除非是一件他们搞不清、抓不到任何蛛丝马迹的事情。否则很少有什么可以逃出他们的分析和思维能力。

５.未成熟男人总是对你讲谁谁谁的不好，谁家又有什么事了等等各种八卦。成熟的男人很少在你面前议论谁的不好，并教会你一些道理。

６.未成熟男人会让你给他做饭洗衣敲背，偶尔为你做几道味道一般的饭菜，但会指责你的毛病。成熟的男人会很安静的只要有时间就给你做很美味的饭菜，递给你水果，洗衣收拾家务，就算你做的饭难吃也会表面幸福的全部吃掉。

７.未成熟男人会在公共场合大声笑，不顾旁人的和你闹。成熟的男人会自己做自己的事，沉稳微笑着处理各种场合。很尊重照顾你。

８.未成熟男人总是在打架时保护你，或者让你走。成熟的男人在你在旁边时不会打架，而是镇定的用智斗。

９.未成熟男人会没事拉上一大帮朋友去酒吧夜店玩，然后很HIGH的玩，和美女眉来眼去。成熟的男人总是迫不得以的被人叫去，安静的抽烟喝酒和朋友聊天。

１０.未成熟男人总是有没玩没了的问题，想要更加了解你。成熟的男人只会用心了解你。

１１.未成熟男人喜欢喝酒，没事到哪吃饭都爱开瓶酒。成熟的男人讨厌喝酒，需要喝酒的时候才会喝酒。

１２.未成熟男人抽烟大多为了消磨时间或者习惯好玩。成熟的男人抽烟大多是为了思考和使自己镇定。

１３.未成熟男人遇到困难的时候会问你怎么办。成熟的男人遇到困难的时候不会告诉你，而是自己去承受。

１４.未成熟男人喜欢昂贵华而不实的东西，追求表面的东西。成熟的男人不喜欢张扬的东西，喜欢有质量和有品味的东西。

１５.未成熟男人喜欢奢侈的生活，有时会浪费。成熟的男人不管多有钱，都会对自己很节俭，却对别人和对心爱的你很大方。

１６.未成熟男人很少回家和父母在一起，也很少关心疼爱父母。经常会做不顾父母感受的事情。成熟的男人哪怕工作再忙都会没时间抽时间回家陪家人，给家人买最好的东西。父母长病，天天陪在床前。每件事都会站在父母的角度考虑。

１７.未成熟男人会和你抢电视机遥控器。成熟的男人会陪你看你喜欢的电视节目。

１８.未成熟男人会听自己喜欢的歌曲，还会滔滔不绝的强迫你一起喜欢。成熟的男人听自己喜欢的歌，但也会了解你喜欢的歌。偶尔投其所好，总之看见你微笑他就开心。

１９．未成熟男人开车时会和你闹，拉你的手还不时的看你。成熟的男人会很认真的开车，会给你讲很多好玩的笑话还有事情，不让你和他闹。因为他珍爱生命，尤其是你的生命。

２０．未成熟男人会抱着你时说你沉，你这个小猪，让你减肥。成熟的男人喜欢背着你转，然后说你怎么这么轻，让你不需要减肥，顺其自然就好。

２１.未成熟男人会考虑半天才买下你喜欢的东西。之后还会唠叨给你买过什么。成熟的男人是只要你喜欢，就会毫不犹豫的买下。或者暗暗买下你喜欢的，给你个惊喜。他爱你，所以会努力让你快乐。

２２.未成熟男人会在过节或生日时给你开PARTY庆祝。成熟的男人会带你到一个温馨的地方给你庆祝，只有你们两个人，属于你们的小世界。

２３.未成熟男人总是到处炫耀他的女人和恋情。不管你是不是介意。成熟的男人，你在身边时他才会骄傲的扬着头。不用说，他的朋友们也会明白你们的关系。你爱他，他爱你，有时爱情就是这么简单的事。

２４．未成熟男人总是喜欢你打扮的花枝招展，生怕走在街上别人不看你，朋友亲戚不夸女朋友时尚漂亮。成熟的男人不喜欢你化妆和打扮的张扬。他们更喜欢自然简单的你。就算不化妆丑也觉你是最漂亮的。

２５.未成熟男人的爱经不住考验，缺乏的是深厚和执着。成熟的男人的爱是博大精深的，爱的不动声色，却又坚定执着。如同父爱。他视你若珍宝。

２６．未成熟男人总是在浪费时间。成熟的男人总是觉的时间不够去拼搏，只想你能幸幸福福。

２７.未成熟男人总是做出很多不负责任的事，然后想方设法逃避责任。成熟的男人总是勇敢去承担责任，并不会做出任何伤害你的事。

２８．未成熟男人遇到问题矛盾，会问你怎么办。成熟的男人会冷静地想解决的办法。

２９.未成熟男人会让你哭让你生气。成熟男人会让你笑让你舒心让你幸福。

Rock for Christ our God :D

the most awesome pastor i've ever seen in my life. check out this song by the one and only Jaeson Ma featuring Bruno Mars.

even took a photo with him at his concert just now hiak. it was the best concert i've ever went to. words can't describe how awesome he is and the passion he has for God. still, the coolest pastor i've ever seen :D